I was hoping to have a few stories for you but things have been a little boring since the rainy season started. And there’s another 2 months of rain.

You probably heard we had a typhoon a few weeks ago, we couldn’t leave the apartment for a few days, everything was flooded, a ferry with 800 people went down with families and many children on board, only 30 survivors they said… very sad...

The president blames the coast guard for allowing the ferry to sail while there was a typhoon. The ferry company would lose a lot of money if it the sailing was cancelled and probably paid the coast guard to allow it to sail which is normal practice here.

Adrian is arriving tonight. The stupid man arranged to see his former lover Mae when he got here. Mae has a new boy-friend and with him is going to Thailand tomorrow for a holiday. Adrian was going to spend the night with her, luckily his flight has been delayed for 5 hours and as he will arrive in Angeles after 2am, he had to cancel the rendevouz with Mae. I don’t think he’s going to recover from her, its been a long time and he still cant get her out of his mind...

Tony and Edelyn- Hapiness in Photo

End of Woes???

All is well here, just got back from holiday, spent 10 days on Boracay, a resort island about 200 miles from Manila, Nice break, no drinking or partying, just vegging out. I missed my girls though.

Adrian has broken up wih his girlfriend again, he has seen her a few times with another guy and is devastated, she won't come back this time which is a very lucky thing for Adrian. Time and the company of a few Philippine girls will hopefully help him recover.

Another girl has been brutally murdered by a German national, fortunately he did not manage to escape the country and has been jailed. The sad thing is if he has enough money he will be able to pay off her family and leave the country. Hard to imagine that the parents would take money but you have to remember this is a third world country and money buys you anything. I will keep you informed.
I haven’t seen my mother for 2 years and she’s driving me crazy to visit her, i will visit her this year so i wont be coming to Australia until next year, will you manage without my intellectual… conversation for another year? I do miss our long chats though….

Alone in Angeles

Me: It's really uncanny how the moments of departure and return roll in. I was a bit excited about my voyage to China, I suppose because it was not consciously planned. It just happened... How did Edelyn enjoy her visit to her parents? Actually I wondered why you did not join her... Though I remember your nightmare story about a trip you took to the Provinces with another companion...

Alberto: Sorry,sorry, sorry, I have been so lazy to email. You went to China? I’m so jealous; China is on my list of things to do in the next few years. Yes your right, my bad experience in the province a few years ago is part of the reason i didn’t go with Edelyn, also the thought of being alone for a week in Angeles.

I had a good time while she was away, I did some planning before Edelyn left so I was well organized, I indulged with a total of six girls, variety of ages, shapes and sizes, one of the girls was 7 months pregnant, this has been one of my fantasies and it was very enjoyable. I never took any of the girls to my apartment, always to a hotel, $6 for 3 hours. A few times I used the hotel twice in one day, I slept well on those days.

Since Edelyn has been back I indulge with other girls only 2 or 3 times a week so I have enough energy for Edelyn, it's a far cry from once or twice a year with Mary. I still can’t believe how my life changed so drastically in such a short period of time.

Adrian is doomed. His girlfriend is the worst type of girl you would want to be involved with, dishonest, unfaithful, manipulating, liar etc. etc. He’s besotted by her and although he knows he should unload her he is unable to. I’ve tried for a year to convince him to get rid of her and he has cast her off a few times but within a few days he’s begging her to return… pitiful sight. And each time she returns, her demands increase and are accepted. Nothing else I can do, I’m just going to sit back and watch his life unfold. I’ts a great shame because he’s a nice guy and there are so many girls after him…Love always…
Thank you very much for the photo and the GREAT UPDATE on your adventures in Paradise. Your back and knees must have healed and life is treating you well, you sound satisfied and content.

I am NOT SORRY for Adrian, often many of us get cought in senseless ruts where we become easy preys of unscrupulous characters. I fell into such trap myself once and I remember the pain... (quite interesting really)... Maybe pain is what masochists want, need and get addicted to... Only it should not last too long, like with a disease, the afflicted should seek and accept the cure...

Me: Alberto, thank you very much for the photo and the GREAT UPDATE on your adventures in Paradise. Your back and knees must have healed and life is treating you well, you sound satisfied and content.

I am NOT SORRY for Adrian, often many of us get cought in senseless ruts where we become easy preys of unscrupulous characters. I fell into such trap myself once. I remember the pain... (quite interesting really)... Maybe pain is what masochists want, need, get addicted to... Only it should not last too long, like with a disease, the afflicted should seek and accept the cure...

China was just great, I travel budget and had a great experience, as a surprise to me (it should not have been) the Chinese were gracious, wonderfully hospitable and honest, I am sad the trip is over and I did not get to Beijing to see Tiannamen Square, The Forbidden City The Great Wall... But I saw a beautiful countryside, immense cities, fabulous monasteries...

Living not Dying

Hi Mirella,

not knowing were you want to live and not having any direction in life can become very depressing, I remember the feeling well during my last years in Australia. You are attached to your material belongings??? My first year here (although very enjoyable) also had many moments of depression, depression??? how could any healthy male become depressed living in a place like this you may ask?? Hard to explain...

For the first time since I was 21 I owned nothing, no business, car, house, furniture etc etc etc, only my clothes in a suitcase. I felt completely naked and vulnerable. Living in a hotel without even a cup or kettle to make a cup of tea. I think the most accurate way of describing the feelings I felt at that time would be to say " I felt like a looser" As time went by, common sense prevailed.

All my past possessions required a huge effort and cost to maintain, my car required me to work at least one day a week to maintain it and to make up the depreciation, 20% of my working life to own a car, RIDICULOUS. So consider what a house costs to maintain and the time it takes and the years of toil, 35 years of buying houses, furniture and trinkets just to show the world that I have climbed a few rungs up that ladder of success.

I look back at that time of my life and the only word that comes to mind is "PATHETIC". The only thing that I have to remind me of those days is an English carriage clock that is now worth $2,000, two weeks of toil to buy just to know what time it is when a $5 clock would do the same without having to polish or maintain it. Can you think of any other word than pathetic? I cant...

I’ve now become very comfortable with my suitcase. I look at so many people and wonder if they will ever realize that they should step off that ladder and start living not dying. I don’t want to look back on my life remembering the good times, I want to live them so my advice has to be "LIVE"

Like the Wind

I would like to be the wind

So that as you walked along the seashore

You could bare your breasts

And let me caress you

With my breath

From an unknown Greek Poet-Greek Anthilogy

Angeles re-boot

Hi Mirella, how was Canada? do you want to live there now? Everything is fine in Angeles. I am taking Edelyn to Hong Kong next week, We are staying 5 days and can't wait. There is a Disney World there, it should be a lot of fun!

Won’t be going out much the next few days because there’s a typhoon hanging around so the weather is terrible, a few Islands have been evacuated, we are in a safe area but it's very wet. I would not volunteer this information but you ask about A. as if you really cared... He and his girlfriend have broken up again, for the last time I hope, he is very unhappy at the moment, just yesterday he saw her with another guy...

There is a gorgeous girl in one of the bars I go to, iIhave known her for several months and always have a drink with her when I’m there, She always wanted me to have sex with her and I wanted her too, the only problem is she is a midget... A few days ago I had a few drinks with her and I was feeling a bit frisky so I took her to a discreet hotel for a few hours, I was surprised at how enjoyable it was. The only problem is my friends wont stop joking about it... hehehehe... I'm happy to entertain...

Update on Hapiness

I’ve been waiting for a good story to send but things have been a little slow here. Edelyn and I are going great. The last few weeks we have been fixing up the apartment, painting, new curtains etc. Everything is very cheap here, new curtains for 7 windows was only $150 so its nice to have a change every few years. I still haven’t been caught indulging with the local girls so far but I’m very discreet. A few of my regular girls have moved on for one reason or another so I’m now looking for some new ones. There are thousands of girls here to choose from, there’s no problem satisfying my needs but it takes time to find 2 or 3 compatible enough to have as regulars. Now that updating the apartment has been accomplished I will have time to go prospecting... Edelyn now has a passport and we are planning on going to Hong Kong in November, should be fun. As Edelyn hasn’t been anywhere it will be a good experience for her. My back is improving but it’s taking a long time, might have something to do with my age… hehehehehe… I miss some good conversation but Adrian will be here in 4 weeks, he and his girlfriend will be coming to Hong Kong with us. You are going to Canada? Make sure to send some email…

A River of Rain

My back is improving very, very slowly… but the inconvenience is not stopping me from indulging in my favourite pastime, it’s very easy… I just let the girls do all the work… hehehehehe…

It’s still raining… we are having some of the nastiest downpours I’ve ever seen. Perhaps I told you before of my apartment’s great position, only a few minutes walk from the bars, clubs and restaurants and a five minute walk to a very large modern shopping mall, everything I need is within 5 minutes walk from home. The location is so good that my two friends, André and Felipe now occupy 2 more of the 6 townhouses in the block.

The only problem we have here is that we are not on a real street (no concrete or tar). It’s a very wide street, though a better description would be - a broad dirt road. - Without exaggeration when it storms the street becomes a river… that is, the full width of the road becomes flooded. It’s a strange sight indeed for when the street is underwater it looks like a river with floating houses on either side. The water is fast flowing, VERY FAST, with small white-tipped waves, like rapids. I could not run faster than it flows… Our street obviously has all the run off from the surrounding area. It’s an odd feeling watching large objects floating by your home, the funniest sight was a dog calmly sailing past, right before my very eyes… Fortunately it’s not deep, never more than 12inches and my apartment has never been in danger of flooding, not yet anyway… hehehehehe.

A Baby in Angeles...

The rollercoaster ride on the stock market in the last 5 weeks was not a surprise… A correction was coming and for me not as painful as the back injury I suffered while (feeling like an overconfident adolescent) I lifted a heavy item… The injury is causing me a lot of pain and presently prevents from standing upright…

You asked - Would I have a baby????
I have been thinking about it… in the Philippines having a child is not the burden it would be in the west. Full time nannies costs about $30 a week, private education is also very affordable. The most important thing is if the relationship fails, a Philippino girl does not have claim to a man’s assets providing the man offers support to the mother and child. At present $60-80 a week would suffice. Because of low financial risks many western men have children late in life.
I will let you know when i decide what to do…

You asked - Would I take Edelyn to Australia???
Very risky… Edelyn would fall in love with Australia because Australia is paradise compared to the Philippines and every Philippino girl’s dream is to live overseas. But these girls don’t understand that a good life in Australia comes at a price and that price requires us to work, which is something Philippinos don’t like doing. Our life here... nice apartment, entertainment and restaurant-eating almost every day and night of the week, entertainment most afternoons for me, if we need something we buy it… (clothes etc). Manicures, pedicures, facials, dentistry, medical, maids, movies, holidays… ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING IS AFFORDABLE HERE. A weekly expenditure for the above list in Angeles is only $600. The same lifestyle in Australia would cost $3000-4000 a week so… ponder awhile…

Adrian's Pain

Edelyn and I have recovered from the malevolent flu in time for Adrian’s arrival a week ago. I’ve been partying a little hard since then and it’s been fun for me, Adrian never recovered from the break up with his girlfriend, for now they are back together but she is seeing other guys, and that is killing Adrian. I can’t see a happy ending; he’s been here long enough to know better…

It’s the monsoon season again, raining non stop for 3 days, everything is flooded, though the fact that we can only wear shorts and thongs hasn’t stopped us from partying, hehehehehe... I can’t be faithful, it’s impossible, here there are just too many temptations but… I am very discreet

BUGGER! My bathroom ceiling is leaking; a separate bathroom roof would protect the rest of the house but the landlord won’t fix it in this weather…

All's well...

All is well here in Angeles Paradise, Edelyn now lives with me and I am content. Though we had two really bad weeks with a flu virus, infected throats and that… had to take plenty of anti-biotics so haven’t been very active. Adrian is arriving next week so have to be 100% fit for that. The council elections here finished a few days ago, the police commissioner said: "The elections were peaceful, only 126 people killed, much better than previous elections" I wonder what the federal elections will be like? We don’t wonder far during election week, its a crazy place…

"I Worship You"

This poem by Charles Baudelaire is dedicated to Adrian, Alberto’s friend who unwillingly must endure the shooting pains of unrequited love…

“I worship you as I worship the firmament of night,
O urn of sadness, great silent woman,
And love you, beautiful one, the more you flee from me,
And seem to me ornament of my nights,
To accumulate ironically the leagues
Which separate my arms from the expanse of blue.

I advance to the attack, and I climb to the assault,
As a chorus of worms climb over a corpse,
And I cherish, O implacable cruel beast,
Even that coldness by which you are for me more beautiful!”

Charles Baudelaire ( 1821 – 1867 )

Back to Paradise

I made it back to the Philippines… I was gone for too long and really missed Angeles.
I should spend the first few days at home but will slip out just to say hello to the girls.

It's so great to be back, to see all my girls is like being in a DisneyWorld for adults, all the dreams and fantasies I ever had coming true in one place and at one time. I always seem to appreciate Angeles more once I’ve been away for a few weeks.

New Start

I am seeing a cherry (Edelyn 25), I take her out on dates rather than take a bargirl, there is no real sex with Edelyn but because of her virginity I don’t worry about her indulging with other guys. I have no intention of dating a bargirl again and have decided the way to avoid this is not to see a bargirl more than 2 or 3 times, this way I will get a huge variety of sex without the emotional problems and I have Edelyn whenever I need a date. Don’t forget I am still learning the ropes here, yet I cannot imagine living anywhere else….

Edelyn is still a cherry although I have almost taken it a few times. She is ready to lose it now, so by next week we should be having a lot of fun. The relationship has been going really well and I am considering having her live with me. She has a good job ( as far as the Philippines is concerned) and is the only girl that hasn’t tried to extract money out of me. We will see what happens...

How to Recover...

My relationship with Kimi is definitely over, perhaps that is why I am able to write again. Everything here is short term, a 6 month relationship is regarded as being long. Because the girls have such short life span (18 – 25 ) they have to move quickly, find a guy, fall in love, move in together and get pregnant. All that usually takes about 2 months, if it doesn’t go well the girl moves on. It’s not unusual for a girl to have 5 or 6 serious relationships a year with a westerner. My relation with Kimi lasted 6 months and at 24 she could not wait any longer for me to make a commitment. I have been here for nearly 2 years during which time I have had 4 serious relationships, because the town I live in is small, I see all my ex girlfriends with their new boyfriends, and what a strange feeling that is…

I divorced my wife and never saw her again. I met Jenny (ex no.3) a few days ago, we talked openly about our new partners and confessed that we still care for each other (though we will never get back together). Most people will have one relationship to recover every 2 – 5 years (?) Here you have 2 -5 relationships to recover from every year. He he he he ...

Unfair to two Lovers

Alberto: I’ve a very stressful time of late and haven’t been in a writing mood. The saga with Kimi has continued with a further twist. As you know I’ve been trying to distance myself from Kimi , during this time I met Edelyn who is not a bargirl, but has a position in a Bank. Edelyn and I have become quite close friends and I was planning to stay with her after Kimi and I parted permanently. But I have not been able to stop…

Both girls know each other and know of my involvement with both of them. Both are waiting for me to make a decision, a decision I am incapable of making. It’s the most ridiculous situation I ever allowed myself to get into, and I am aware of been greatly unfair on the girls. I have no idea how it will end, but I am sure there will be a lot more pain….

The Story of Kimi

Life is a very strange thing and too often unfair. For quite a long time I dreamt of meeting the right girl, a decent, respectable girl to fall in love with, and once again experience those wonderful warm passionate feelings I had so long ago. I’ve dated many girls with potential but never really found the right one.One day when I was dateless and feeling horny I went to my favourite bar and chose a girl to come home with me.

She was nothing special considering I am surrounded by very sexy girls, she was very average in all departments. I had a good night with her and a few days later decided to take her home again. And again it was very nice!Within a few weeks, and against my very own advice, I had fallen for her. I have been here long enough to know the dangers of falling for bargirls… Though I love all my princesses the problems are many and much too great to consider a long lasting relationship with a bargirl. All this happened several weeks ago,

I have tried to avoid her but we keep getting drawn together. As we still see each other, the feelings get stronger and stronger which means the pain is going to be greater. Kimi has avoided going with other men and I have made sure she has earned enough money, ( bars have quotas for the girls). I can’t take her out of the bar and make her my girlfriend because she has been there too long, her behaviour shows it, yet I can’t leave her in the bar for other men to have sex with her because I care for her so much.What a painful dilemma, I know I have I have to walk away one day and because she works in my favourite bar I will see her with other guys. Why couldn’t I have these feelings for an ordinary girl? Life deals out some cruel blows sometimes…

The Value of the Cherry

Della, I am sending you some photos, this photo with three girls in my spare bed, are Wency, Pricess and Shella . All three are cherries, ( virgins ) and are waiting for the right price for their cherry... they work in a bar which we use regularly and the three have become very good friends of ours... I have no interest in taking cherries but we sometimes pay a fee to the bar to take them for a night out.
The fee we pay allows them to stay the night and I take them back the next day. Wency and Shella usually sleep with me, it’s difficult but I do behave. I am sure I will be very jealous when a suitable buyer for their virginity will come along, however the money they will get will change their lives and those of their family for the better…

Alberto, I love the photos and the story, and I confess to feeling a little envious, I wish I was a virgin in your bed too, waiting to sell my cherry... I think it wonderful that you occasionally pay to take the girls from the bar for a night out, I am sure there will be a reward for your temporary chastity...

The End of Grace

I’m feeling very bad today, Grace, a friend of ours was found chopped up in a hotel room yesterday, we are all feeling terrible. The police caught the guy trying to leave the country, a German.. This is going to be a very very sad week.Grace is the third girl to be murdered by a westerner since I’ve been here. All three girls were killed by Germans, a few days ago a girl that we know named Michelle was beaten up by a German so you can imagine how we are feeling about Germans right now.

Very, very bad week, we are all feeling so bad about Grace..There is very little if any protection for the girls, they rely on the guys being decent, unfortunately this place attracts all sorts of people, many many of them are far from decent. Once a girl leaves the bar with a guy, she is on her own. I treat every girl (no matter what her profession) like a princess, I feel this is the least I can do considering how they have changed my life (for the better).

by Della