Living not Dying

Hi Mirella,

not knowing were you want to live and not having any direction in life can become very depressing, I remember the feeling well during my last years in Australia. You are attached to your material belongings??? My first year here (although very enjoyable) also had many moments of depression, depression??? how could any healthy male become depressed living in a place like this you may ask?? Hard to explain...

For the first time since I was 21 I owned nothing, no business, car, house, furniture etc etc etc, only my clothes in a suitcase. I felt completely naked and vulnerable. Living in a hotel without even a cup or kettle to make a cup of tea. I think the most accurate way of describing the feelings I felt at that time would be to say " I felt like a looser" As time went by, common sense prevailed.

All my past possessions required a huge effort and cost to maintain, my car required me to work at least one day a week to maintain it and to make up the depreciation, 20% of my working life to own a car, RIDICULOUS. So consider what a house costs to maintain and the time it takes and the years of toil, 35 years of buying houses, furniture and trinkets just to show the world that I have climbed a few rungs up that ladder of success.

I look back at that time of my life and the only word that comes to mind is "PATHETIC". The only thing that I have to remind me of those days is an English carriage clock that is now worth $2,000, two weeks of toil to buy just to know what time it is when a $5 clock would do the same without having to polish or maintain it. Can you think of any other word than pathetic? I cant...

I’ve now become very comfortable with my suitcase. I look at so many people and wonder if they will ever realize that they should step off that ladder and start living not dying. I don’t want to look back on my life remembering the good times, I want to live them so my advice has to be "LIVE"

Like the Wind

I would like to be the wind

So that as you walked along the seashore

You could bare your breasts

And let me caress you

With my breath

From an unknown Greek Poet-Greek Anthilogy

Angeles re-boot

Hi Mirella, how was Canada? do you want to live there now? Everything is fine in Angeles. I am taking Edelyn to Hong Kong next week, We are staying 5 days and can't wait. There is a Disney World there, it should be a lot of fun!

Won’t be going out much the next few days because there’s a typhoon hanging around so the weather is terrible, a few Islands have been evacuated, we are in a safe area but it's very wet. I would not volunteer this information but you ask about A. as if you really cared... He and his girlfriend have broken up again, for the last time I hope, he is very unhappy at the moment, just yesterday he saw her with another guy...

There is a gorgeous girl in one of the bars I go to, iIhave known her for several months and always have a drink with her when I’m there, She always wanted me to have sex with her and I wanted her too, the only problem is she is a midget... A few days ago I had a few drinks with her and I was feeling a bit frisky so I took her to a discreet hotel for a few hours, I was surprised at how enjoyable it was. The only problem is my friends wont stop joking about it... hehehehe... I'm happy to entertain...